Soaked in sin

2012-03-03T11:44:00.002+08:00

Back to update a little! Heading to town with love today. It's been so long since I've last seen her which also is the cause of making me feel excited about meeting her later on. Outfit for the day: white spag and green skater skirt. Till then x

School

2012-02-25T13:30:00.003+08:00

School has been really enjoyable for me. I love school now. I mean, with my girls and the great classmates I have........ I find school fun! And there's no more maths, sci and what other horrible subjects anymore. Yay I love it! Hehe people ask why I'm with a group of malay girls in school, why don't mix with chinese girls? I tell you, I don't see a need for chinese to be with chinese. My group of malay girls are special and I love each and everyone of them :-) x hmm here are some pictures I took in school with ma girls he he enjoy!

Mundane Monday

2012-02-20T23:05:00.006+08:00

School was fun as usual. Our lpdx teacher bought us ice cream! She is always buying us things to eat. He he I like her for that! School ended at 3 today. There wasn't vsm, you see. Well, tomorrow school is ending extremely early then usual though. We suppose to end school at 5 tomorrow but guess there are some changes due to graduation night for the earlier badge who are leaving the school already and that the teachers are all busy preparing and helping out so we are all affected so yes which means we don't have some lessons. Yay! It's mom's birthday tomorrow also, wow she's turning 50. Old or old? Having simple dinner at NEX since we celebrated earlier on Sunday. We are also having baskin robins ice cream after that! Hehe can't wait to eat n eat n eat. Till then x

$15 Saturday

2012-02-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

Hi guys! Back to update on what I did today. Marcus asked me to go work with him and I happily agreed not knowing what I was in for...... I thought things was going to be easy but omfg it seems like everyone's not willing to fork out a piece of 10$ to help the needy. Worst of all, I stood for 6 hrs++? I swear I almost died. Complained and whined quite a fair bit :-/ I pity george, ethan and marcus as they needed to hear me whine...... ha ha but they were rly patient and yep I like patient guys. Hehehehehe okie honestly? I would never work in this line anymore. I can't do it. Cabbed back with ethan. Luckily thr was my double cheese burger w/o pickles meal on the dining table waiting for me. With food, everything is possible *twist going to hit the sack soon, I'm dead tired. Till then x

2012-02-14T22:06:00.004+08:00

Need to rant about some things before I go to bed tonight.

Shall start with 10 facts about me?

1) I've got trust issues

2) I am soft hearted

3) I love to eat yet I am afraid to get fat

4) I get easily annoyed by people who talk/act without using their brain

5) I have a loud voice

6) I cannot live without my phone. It is almost 24/7 with me

7) I love drinking cold drinks

8) I love my family

9) I find it very hard to learn from the mistakes I made and I have no idea why

10) I love smelling good. I mean, I need to...... if not I feel as if I'm naked

Okay so I'm done typing out the 10 facts about me. So now....... I shall talk about something called friends. I mean it really has been bothering me. I find it so hard to trust people and when I really do trust someone, they make me regret doing so. What? You trying to tell me the defination of friends is Have fun, laugh here laugh there then when you make friend with another one or two new freak you forget about the ones before that? Are you trying to tell me that? Seriously I am so sick of this group of people called 'friends'. Fuck you if you don't know the meaning. This society, it's like...... everyone's just making use of each other. I want true friendship? Friends that'll stick together no matter what? I always am insecure. Especially the part about friends. Because all the more when I know they come and go, I am so afraid to treasure friendships yet when I do.... something got to happen like today. When class ended, everyone went off. What the fuck seriously what the fuck? Just because I stayed back a little later doesn't mean I don't need you guys to wait for me? And you guys can just walk off without even giving a fuck at whose missing in the group? Thanks ah, "friends" I mean I'm hurt. Giving me second thoughts on whether I should still treasure friendships or be like "aiya you want come or go your problem" that type of attitude towards a friendship. I really don't want that to happen, don't let that happen please. I hate to be treated like I'm taken for granted. I really hate it cause I've been through much more then I should for a turning eighteen yrs old kid, so yes please.... don't take me for granted.

Heart beats fast, colors and promises

2012-02-13T21:12:00.003+08:00

Hai hai! Back to update about my day. Went to study at j8's library with my classmates to get our cs script done. It is almost done soon! :-) so thankful for good classmates. It doesn't feels like Monday anyway. Hehe can't wait to get back to school tomorrow! Till then X

Changes

2012-02-11T12:37:00.007+08:00

Hi guys! I'm back again to keep this space alive. Wondering if I should change my blog's link. Hm....... well anyway this morning I just sent my maid to the airport and there she goes :-( right nowzzzz I can't wait for her to come back alr. I mean from today onwards I've got to do everything myself and that yes, suck. It's a Saturday and yet I am stuck at home. There are a few plans actually but I don't feel like gg that far today, so whut nowzz ha ha... school's the usual, fun #whatsnew. Oh and I went for reporting ystd after school. Met yap at redhill mrt and then we walked to mcys together. Strange, Iwwaistouth. I made him waited for me at redhill for 'bout 20 mins thou. He he I am sorry and I swear there won't be a second time. Thanks for accompanying me through out thou even if it was for a short while x

2012-02-08T19:15:00.002+08:00

Hi guys! Back to update this space of mine. What's new guys? School everyday and then back home. I love Wednesdays the most. Know why? The timetable for Wednesdays are the slackest. Hehehehe so yup played volleyball during pe lesson. Well, it was fun seeing all the balls flying all around. I love my classmates and the girls so freaking much. :-) okay so....... some things to update? My maid is flying back home to settle some issues this Saturday. Oh gosh, I don't know what to do without her. I mean, I'm so used to her doing everything for me. Yes I actually mean everything. She's coming back on the 11th of March which means she is going away for a month!! Sigh this is terrible. I really got to start learning how to be independent. Okay so back to topic, after school, back home to bathe and then went to sister's place to play with her new member of the house, brownie!! A cute toy poodle she just got last Sunday. It really is very cute and it looks exactly like a toy!! Yup so that is about all. Till then X

2012-02-01T21:27:00.003+08:00

Bugis with salihah and ziela bb. Met them around 5? I was late. Oh da my fault. Sorry girls! Promise not to be late anymore. Okay so it was like.......... didn't really had a lot of time to shop? And we were dead tired after school, not forgetting nafa. Did our five stations and 2.4 omg can die..................... sigh so we went to haji lane wanting to get the clutch bag I was eyeing for quite some time and fuck sad to say I couldn't find it anymore!!!!! Omg feel like crying. We then went to get some cosmetics stuff at junction then went to bugis street 2nd and 3rd floor to look for what we wanted to get. Apparently, it seems that I am not fated to get anything??? It's either there wasn't my size or I didn't find anything nice. Fml ended up getting a nice bag from dorothy perkins and a platform shoe from bugis street 2nd floor. While salihah got a leather jacket and ziela got 2 tops and what not. I'm really lazy to type the rest out cause I'm so exhausted but yup that's about all. Hehe! Ruhaini bb then came to join us aftermath and I went off awhile later. Sorry girls couldn't spend a lot of time with you guys!!! But don't worry. Soon okay, 3 more months down the road. Hehehehehe I'm gg with the girls to study for the upcoming tests at changi airport tomorrow. Can't wait! Till then X

Monday blues

2012-01-30T19:59:00.002+08:00

Hi guys! It's Monday! Back to school after two days of rest. Everytime someone asks me, "How's school?" My reply would be "Awesome!" because I really do enjoy school with all the girls in the class and not forgetting the guys too. Though all my girls are malay but so what? They are fun people and that is what that matters. Hmm, so to cut my post short. After school, Ziela, Salihah, Ruhaini, Donald and I went to NEX for late lunch at Mad Jack. After that, we walked around for a little while in NEX before heading home. Yes that's about it. Okay so like, I'm going to do some shopping with Ziela bb and Salihah bb this thurs! Need to get some nice tops, a shoe and a bag. And then on fri the whole group of us...... (Salihah, Ziela, Ruhaini, Amy, Safriza and Fyeeza) to henderson wave and and some photoshoot there!! I bet it's going to be awesome. Hehehe can't wait can't wait. I'll have all the pictures up by Sat most prolly. K blog again soon! Ciaos X

We are young, we run free

2012-01-27T17:31:00.007+08:00

Hai! I've been blogging almost daily. I'm so proud of myself, to keep this place alive and also note down all the memories in school. Firstly, Thank god it's Friday. Have been waking up at 0630 every morning and I wake up complaining that I'm tired. Total zombified...... no much of redbull or food can make my eyes not feel like it weighs 10kg. It was dreadful. I really got to sleep early on Mondays to Fridays if not I'm the one whose going to suffer. Okay so anyway, had so much fun with my classmates. I really have to thank god that each and everyone of my classmate is fated to be here in one class together with me. I feel that our class is esp bonded together and that makes me feel so happy for no reason. Safriza brought her camera so we took lots of picture and obviously I used Rongjun and Marcus' ipad to take pictures. There was photobooth in their ipad so........... yup cannot resist ah ha ha! After school, went to have lunch at pastamania again then back home. Wanted to meet the guys and darling salihah at hg plaza for some rounds of pool but I got so tired and lazy once I reach home and ended up not heading out at all. Blame it all on my laziness! >:( hehehehe okay guys that's about all. I'm going for another round of reunion dinner and visiting this weekend. Sigh this year cny totally no feel at all. Oh well have a good weekend alright whoever that is reading this? Shall blog again when I'm free or something. Ciaos!

One step closer

2012-01-26T19:43:00.003+08:00

What's up man! Hehehehe okay so I am back to post about my day. After school, the 10 of us went to have lunch. Some of the guys went to have kfc cause they didn't want to have pastamania which.......... I and some others wanted. So those who ate pastamania with me were Ziela, Safriza, Salihah, George and Donna. Had baked rice for lunch and boy was I so full. It was Ziela's first time trying pastamania and she tried pizza for the first time. All this must type out so that I won't forget and it is good memories that I wouldn't want to forget ^.<
After lunch, we went to get our tickets!! We decided to catch "We not naughty" and it was 8 bucks for weekdays..... not bad huh. We got the 3.50pm show so yup we had lots of time and were roaming aimlessly. Ziela and Salihah accompanied me to the cotton on sale which was going on at the concourse of j8 and yep know what? I got a pair of shades for just 2 bucks. Yes 2 freaking bucks!!!!! Best deal ever he he he happy me.
We then went to find the guys at harvey norman and went to the apple area and started taking lots of pictures (which contributed to my lively post) had so much fun with them.... too bad that Ziela and George were the only 2 person who was as enthu as me. The rest were like busy walking around and doing their own stuff :-( was laughing like mad while doing stupid actions....
We then went to have ice cream at marble slab and before we knew it..... it was already 3:50pm. We rushed to get all the popcorns and what not and entered the theatre. All the excited faces were like.......... damn funny. 1 and only time I'm going to see them with such faces. All the good times and building up memories X it was a chinese show and yet we got 3 malay peeps with us. Just imagine how cool it is? Thank god there are english subtitles for them. They cried at some parts and I cried at another different part cause I find that it was really a flashback for me. What I've gone through and stuff...... sigh oh well thank god I'm over that horrible period of time in my life.
The show ended around 6plus??? We then all headed back home. Lastly, I would like to thank Ziela and Salihah for being there for me. Most of the time. Though we knew each other for less then 3 weeks but yup, all the actions you put in showed me something. I hope our friendship will last through out the year. Once again, love you girls so much. X

Wordy Nerdy

2012-01-25T20:35:00.004+08:00

Hi guys! What's up! I'm back to blog about my day at school today. So well as you know, after two days of holidays we're back to school. Everyone including me finds it a really tough and unwilling thing to do. And that is to? Yes wake up early but oh well, school's fun just that school starts too early! *pouts so anyway met the girls at Bishan Interchange before walking to school. After school, we went to Pizza Hut for lunch. The boys suggested and I needed to while away and loiter outside because there was reporting at 6pm which I didn't want to go back home to bathe and stuff cause I know I'll be lazy and I wouldn't want to go out again after I bathed so.............. after lunch, some went off and left Jenny, Donna, Ziela, Sabrina, Salihah and I. We walked about and awhile later Ziela went to meet her friends. Leaving yup, Jenny, Donna, Sabrina, I and Salihah. Then awhile later, Jenny went off. Leaving Donna, Sabrin, Salihah and I. We walked around aimlessly before landing up at Yoshinoya. We talked about a lot of things..... then about 4 plus Donna and I took the same train since he was heading towards the green line too! If not for him, I think I'll be a lost girl and would have taken a cab instead. Ha ha so yep he helped me to save $$ and also accompanied me all the way to the platform (he was taking the opposite side anyway) I then followed the map closely and reached Redhill. I felt so independent as usual hehehehe. I then took a cab to Mcys and saw Jurgen and Jeremie there by chance. Left there about 6? Dad came to fetch me home aftermath. That's all for today! I can't wait for tomorrow anyway. We are going to catch a movie after school! Yay popcornssssssssssssssssss

Chu er

2012-01-24T15:54:00.002+08:00

Hi guys! Back to update a little at this space of mine. Well, Chinese new year chu yi was yesterday and sad to say I fucking cried on the first day of Chinese new year. Why? Yah thanks to my dad. I wouldn't go into details but whatever it is, I forgive people too easily. And he's my dad afterall, how can I hate him for life right? So yup. It was really boring cause we did the same things every year. Bai nian, bai nian and more bai nian......... -_- catched the show 'Dance dance dragon' with my parents yesterday then back home by 8pm. As for today? I decided to stay at home. Wanted to go for a movie marathon but it seems like everyone's way too busy visiting relatives with their family. Parents are going to friend's place for some gathering later and I didn't want to join them as I find it so awkward so I decided to stay at home since mom said that she'll bring ang baos back for me anyway. Hehe all the more I didn't find a need to go with them! Sigh........ I find that life is really that meaningless. And that I've got not much aim in life. I am so sick and tired of everything.... K till then! Ciaos X

Viva la vida

2012-01-21T16:51:00.002+08:00

Hi guys! It's stay home Saturday for me as there's reunion dinner later on at relatives place! Chinese new year is in two days time. How time flies, huh? I'm so excited NOT. There's no feel though but yup I'm really excited to be broke > rich. $$$$ lai lai..... I feel so lonely. It's like I'm forever alone. When will the guy who is right for me come along? When? Sigh. Just some thoughts hmm. Hehe okay blog again ciaos X

2012-01-20T15:27:00.002+08:00

Hi there! So I'm back to blog again since I've got pictures ha ha. Well, if you're following me on twitter you might find out that I had my fringe trimmed and sad to say I regretted it so badly. It looks really horrible to me. ^ above are the pictures I took a moment ago only which is also how my new fringe looks like? It grew a lot already ok!!!! A few days ago it was gan short. Now it looks like bangs. I swear I'll never go to salon ever again. No way I'm letting it get touched a second time. Enough regrets and sorrows. So yup, thank god it's friday. Dead tired from waking up early every morning to go to school. Long weekend ahead guys! And furthermore, I'll be a rich kid over the weekends due to cny. Heh heh $$$$$ shall blog again? I'm going to the freshman party tonight at macpherson ite held only for the new batch of ite kids! Ciaos X

Take a chance on me

2012-01-14T21:47:00.004+08:00

So hi guys! It's a Saturday night and I'm back home, had my bath, sitting down infront of my laptop with my wet hair, dripping all over while typing this. Here are some pictures I like the most (points above) that I took this afternoon before heading out. Like them? Cause I do. Well, I had fun as usual with Grace, William and Ernest today. Met my darling girl at 2 then cabbed down to fep to meet Ernest. Walked around and had Sushi Teh for lunch then we met up with William, Solehin and Jaslyn. We then walked to Cinelesure! Sat there like fools wasting time when time is so precious........ ugh after much hesitation we then left for Bugis! Was looking for a nice pair of shoes and a bag for school. Got myself a nice pair of sandals or should I call it shoe lol don't know but I failed to get a bag. And in that shop where I bought my shoe, I saw this really nice pair of shoe and yet I didn't get it. Fml I swear that next week I must find some time to go down to Bugis and get it. Too pretty to miss! :-( shall look for bags again next week too. Chinese new year is coming soon! How time flies. I want lots and lots of $$! Can't wait for school to start next week anyway! Already looking forward he he. Till then X

Lipstick stains

2012-01-12T16:03:00.004+08:00

Hi. I am here to blog again since I got the time. Since I started school at bishan ITE, I spell school as fun and no longer boring or neither do I dread to go to school anymore. I feel so happy that I made the right choice. I mean like......... who says ITE is for losers or drop outs? If you've got such a mindset, I pray hard that you'll go and do some research about ITE. What those kids have achieved thru ITE and what they have learned. So I have this group of girls that I cherish a lot already though it's just the 4th day of school but it seems like I've known them for a really long time. I hope our friendship between us wouldn't end up like some friends I made. I hope I have good judgment this time. For once please. I am so sick of making wrong friends with people. Okay so anyway, school have been really fun and enjoyable for me. I love going to school and I look forward to school so much! Heh heh I saw this really cute guy in school anyway. And our eyes met quite a few times. He is so cute cause he wanted to peep at me and he'll pretend to touch his hair and turn back. Cute? Omg yes very. Ihhttmoss. Till then x

My first day of school

2012-01-09T20:36:00.004+08:00

Well. Ni men hao! So............ my first day of school went pretty well. Didn't really made friends cause I had Grace, Eileen, Daryl chiam + his two cock friends and Boonhao. Was glad that I went into the same school with some of my close friends. Meh......... so the first day of school was normally BAWLRING. Some funny BL or whatever they call themselves introduced and tried to make everyone felt good on the first day which was totally not convincing at all. Ha so oh well, got into our classrooms and my register number was 4 so yep you can imagine I was sitting right infront of the class like a..... what? Nerd. Yes nerd lol but I didn't mind. I was kinda happy cause there's some jokers in our class and that made things fun. So yes orientation on the first day like every other school. Had the happiest time of my life when we played games. Yes that's about all and I can't wait for school already. See la, ganchiong spider only. Till then x

2012-01-08T15:27:00.002+08:00

So, school's starting tomorrow. Gah a bit nervous yet excited to make new phlens. Shall blog again ciaos!

Random things

2012-01-04T12:57:00.013+08:00

When I grow up........ I want all these to be one of the things I possess x

2012

2011-12-31T22:07:00.008+08:00

The above pictures are all taken via ernest's iphone using my instagram account today when I went out with him. Sigh, happy new year everyone!!!! It's a stay home night for me while others are all out ready to countdown for the new year to come. I feel so sad and ji muo :-( nevermind I swear next year my life will be so much better once I end probation! Life's great. Got into the retail course at bishan and thank god....... eileen's going into the same course and same campus as me!!!!! Yay can't wait to start school in a new environment/friends and everything on the right track. Okay my mac is here! Shall update again. Till then x

Take a bite of my heart tonight

2011-12-27T16:22:00.004+08:00

Hi guys! I'm back. Ahhh it seems like it has been weeks since I've used the computer ha ha it feels really weird. How did you guys spent Christmas? I had a lot of fun and good food with my relatives at my place on Christmas night :-) in a blink of an eye, Christmas is over and 2011 is coming to an end. How time flies huh? So anyway! Today I went for a interview at bishan ite which I was shortlisted for that's why they needed me to go down for an interview. Mom took leave just to accompany me there. Isn't she sweet? Duh. I think my mom's the nicest mom on the world and I love her. Okay well anyway thank god my interviewer was a really nice lady. Was really nervous while waiting for my turn anyway..... sigh, then had fish manhattan for lunch after my interview. Took a train back to punggol. An impromptu plan to do a new pair of specs, didn't expect to find the type of specs I've been wanting to get. I've been wearing my current specs for nearly 2 years. 2 years leh ya lol long right I didn't even realised it till mom told me. Well I just hope that I'll get used to it. Collecting it tomorrow after reporting. Changes are good. Not all but some. Right? I really can't wait to start 2012 afresh. New friends, new life, whole new start. I want to forget the past. Not all, just some bad memories I had in the few years back. So yup, looking forward to the year 2012. Till then, x

Bring them down to their knees

2011-12-21T14:50:00.005+08:00

Hi guys. Back to blog again! Well, a stay home tues for me yesterday. Dad and mom drove back to sg just to choose the courses and make sure I make the right decision before droving out of sg again. I just pray hard I'll get the course I'm most interested in and at the nearest location for me. I feel that I'm really lucky to have such supportive parents even though I know they are disappointed in me, not being able to go to take o lvls next year! I'll make them proud of me in another way or other. I am supposed to go out with daphne today but I don't know for what reason she isn't replying my texts and calls and worst of all, not wanting to be late, I'm all dressed and ready to head out and yet I don't even hear from her. Gah forget it. I just know that I must have my ikea favourites today! I must! :-( craving badly for it and esp when I'm starving right now. Gonna get some hair accessories too if there's time. That's all for now, till then x

Where do we go from here?

2011-12-19T22:19:00.013+08:00

So hi guys. I'm back to talk about the results I've got. So yup apparently I went to school to take my results. The feeling was as if my heart was in my mouth. You know that nervous feeling. It really sucked. O well like jieying say, remember the feeling you get cause it comes only once in a lifetime. Worst of all, my parents are not in singapore..... actually I felt that maybe it'll be better for them not to be in singapore so that I won't feel that stress. But guess what, I felt even worse without them being there for me. I felt so lost and insecure it's like I see other kids with their parents all there for them and stuff while me? Alone and always alone. I just find that everyone is always thinking about themselves, more for themselves then for you. I just can't explain that feeling neither can I ever figure out why. Well, okay so back to the moment where I got my results in my hand and when I opened my report book (as the piece of paper was tucked inside it) I quickly searched for the overall points but they did it differently this year I guess. We had to count it ourselves so the nervous me looked at the numbers I 've got. I wouldn't say how badly/well I did but I just thank god for allowing me to have a lot of courses to choose from for ite. I really got to think hard and let my interest fill me on what course to take. So yup parents are driving back to sg just to help me fill up the application form and what courses I'll be interested in. I know that my parents are disappointed in me. At the tone they gave me over the phone, I know it all. All I can do now is just to work real hard and prove to them and everyone else that it isn't too late and that it isn't the end. :-) I've got confidence that I'll work hard, finish my studies and earn big $$ in the near future. Shall just hope that I'll be able to go into a course that I'm really interested in and yep do well there! Don't hope and expect for anything else in the meanwhile. Human beings are too judgmental, fake and hypocrite. I think I'm too naive and soft hearted to get myself into real thick and thin friendship with people.... shall not get myself too close with human beings. Am so afraid of them.... no longer got that kind of energy to get myself into trouble or friendship problem. So yup shall always be on my guard. Wow, I guess this is really a long and wordy post. Hehe hope you guys don't mind it. Last but not least, I thank the people who were so concerned about me. Much appreciated! Till then x

And I wanna live, not just survive

2011-12-16T15:17:00.003+08:00

So hi guys. I'm back to blog again. Missed me? Ok it has just been a day. I wonder if anybody still reads my blog but whatever it is, it feels good having somewhere to place all my thoughts and words into. They say haters hate and why? Because they're jealous. I guess so then? Ha ha. You can talk all you want cause my skin is really thick. :-) so go ahead and try bringing me down, I'll be rising up from the ground ok sweetheart. It's a Stay home Friday for me I guess!!! So excited bout tomorrow. I can't wait to see Grace, Willian and Solehin. We are gg ice skating and what not yay! Hope Solehin brings his dslr so that we can take lots of pictures. Hehe ok till then x

Haters post

2011-12-15T12:54:00.004+08:00

Today, I'm here to rant about the HATERS I got. :-) starting of with, if you hate me, in my face if you will? cause it seems like those "haters" I've got only dare to come talking as if they know me and what not on formspring or wherever that I wouldn't get to know who they are. and what's the reason? yup, they got no guts to let me know who they are. boohoo, how pitiful. you want my attention, I give it to you and then you don't let me know who the fuck you are. recently, there has been sayings that I copied some girl's tweets and put as my facebook statuses. er babe, you kidding me? I mean don't say I also know who are you. young girl calling other people brainless, having mean and nasty anons flooding your formspring with mean comments. you don't like, you go do to people, you think people likes it? please, spare a thought for people. I got no evidence that it was you who left some comments on my formspring or the girl's formspring but my six sense tells me that it was you. yup, this young girl who she think she is very pretty/matured just because she is trying so hard to follow the trend in her appearance and what not. let me tell you something, start finding better things to do or I assure you, that you'll get taught a lesson in the face for your rudeness or whatever fucked up attitude you've got there. so you better stop trying so hard to bring me down cause at the end of the day... karma's the one doing the job, sweetie :-) I've got some sense of originality or should I say more then the other wannabe girls out there??? ha ha please la, I'm already 17 going to turn 18 next year. people matured enough to think. I've been thru so much more then you so yup stop running around in circles trying to judge and bad mouth about people. for the second time I'm saying this, in my face if you will. x

2011-12-13T15:30:00.002+08:00

Harrrrrrow off to meet mom at bugis. Heh heh heh bought 2 tops and one jeans ystd oh oh and not forgetting my new baby from M.A.C as early Christmas present!!!! Love u mom :-* this whole week will be shopping, shopping and more shopping for me. How I love Christmas hahahaha hmm recently have been spending a lot of $$ but the feeling of having new clothes joining my cupboard feels supar good. K till then, got to run chaos!!!

Money fly

2011-12-10T22:50:00.003+08:00

Hi guys! So I'm here to blog 'bout my day. It's Saturday! Well I love Saturdays best. No like seriously. Cause you know what? I feel happy being able to see my dearest girl every Saturday. I don't know if she feels the same way as I do but yup, I really cherish our friendship a lot. What we've been thru together are more then what any friends out there can go thru together. So, today........ Met grace and then william. Met Solehin at Ion Orchard then to get my dress changed and guess what. They refund me the amount of the dress. God...... don't know how happy was I cause I was apparently broke and having 35$ in my wallet only. And right after? I got extra 90$ in my wallet. You know how that feels? Hahahaha bet you guys won't until you're in my situation. Well went to have fish and co right after that! Enjoyed what I always ordered whenever I'm at fish and co. We then headed to fep to look for my heels. Couldn't find 'em and ended up at Cinelesure. Wanted to catch a movie but due to time constrain, yup we decided to go shop for my heels at the flea. Thanks to my dearest girl, I found the heels I wanted and bought it at only 20$!!!!! Fuck you kidding me????? Hehe yup 20$ only!!!!!! I also bought a pair of rly nice leggings at 29.90$ cheap deals~ hehe soooo feeling like budget barbie ok whatever lol we then headed to this really deserted place which I won't say where. "Picnic-ed" there for a little while and had a lot of fun just chit chatting. We then cabbed back to punggol for dinner at the newly-opened mac beside punggol plaza which was having really some kind of cheap offers because it was opened not long ago. Can you believe how lucky we were??? Esp william, solehin and I lol #kiasu and #singaporean grace wasn't excited at all cause she said she had mac everyday for lunch at work hahaha she r super cute. We then headed back home aftermath cause we were all probationers lol good kids home by 9pm!!!! ^.^ yup that's about all. Am so excited to meet the 3 of 'em again next week. We r going to ice skating!!!!! Weeeeeeeeeee hahahaha ok till then x

Please. Don't. Be. In. Love. With. Someone. Else

2011-12-09T17:20:00.003+08:00

So hello guys! Finally some new pictures right........... I know I know. I hope it did made my blog a little more alive. :-( found that I haven't been taking pictures in awhile. If you're following me on Twitter, I said that I'm going to get my dad to get me a nice camera as my Christmas present! Cause I think that I am lacking of a nice camera for taking pictures (I love taking pictures, ok which girl doesn't) so yup, I hope he agrees cause I really want a good camera which has nice effects for me to take and that I don't have to use my webcam in my laptop or friend's iphone to take pictures anymore......... heeheee can't wait for Christmas! Good and rich food *licks lips* oh ya anyway ystd was my last day at work. not gng to work until I get back my results and see what to do next! Okay till then! xx

Sinners sin

2011-12-07T20:30:00.005+08:00

So hello there everyone! My school's prom wasn't that bad after all.... just that time passed by especially fast through out the night. so I got my brows done at hougang and then back to punggol to do my hair. it cost me 30$ to straighten my hair, yes the hell. but whatever it is, once in a lifetime so yep! took a train to meet my darling girl and yes getting lots of weird stares right after getting on the train... sigh and my high heels were being a bitch. I think it's the highest pair of heels I owe. hehe met my darling girl and then cabbed to M hotel to meet the rest. obviously when we reach, all eyes on us which made us even more nervous ha ha well upon reaching there, everyone was dressed to the nines so I didn't really felt that awkward anymore. the sad thing was that we didn't manage to take a lot of pictures sighs...... oh ya and I got on the stage at one time, being nominated the 'most talkative lady' thanks to my friends. ~.~ awkward much...... cabbing home after prom while my other friends went to drink and stuff. that made me feel really bad cause I didn't get to join them and that I had to head home so early when the night is still young.... on the other hand, at least I enjoyed myself. yep that's whats most important! that's about all. x

2011-12-02T11:04:00.000+08:00

I wasted too much time....................... on U

Never liked goodbyes

2011-11-27T15:13:00.002+08:00

Well, everything happened for a reason. I'm just going to sit around and wait for the right one to come around! Okay so hi guys! Those who are following me on twitter might know that I'm going to my school's prom on the 6th of dec! So glad that I made the right choice and decided to go. Cause you see, it might be the last time seeing those classmates/schoolmates of mine........I believe the 65$ spent is worthwhile! Not mentioning the $$ that I'm going to spend on my outfit and what not! He he shopping with ernest and athira. Crossing my fingers, hoping that I'll find the right piece of dress that brings out the personality in me on that night! Can't wait! Am so going to enjoy myself. Talking about my daily life? Yes working every single day, all the complaints are going to be worth it when my pay arrives $_$ furthermore, I got great colleagues working with me. Not forgetting my little brother :-) till then, x

Hummingbird heartbeat

2011-11-20T20:22:00.003+08:00

Finally found some time to blog. Yeah life's great! Working like almost every weekday! Spend my Saturday with my favourite girls. That's enough for me! Well, got reporting next Tuesday! Gah, another long trip down to redhill. :-( but it's okay heehee have been eating so much lately. I pray hard I don't grow fat I don't want to! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! Need to shed some fats soon! That's about it. Till then, x

You're far from the usual

2011-11-13T15:52:00.002+08:00

Town with my girls ystd, grace and isabella. yep it was good! watched 23:59 with my two girls...... xia si wo................ I wonder what made us so brave to even go watch that show lor ha ha well anyway the show was so so. more of shocking then scary actually. I wasted $10.50 to scare myself lol can simply say that I eat non-stop thru out the whole day ystd wonder why I eat so much...................... kk blog again tomorrow x

11/11/11?

2011-11-11T10:24:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone!!!!!!! I am back to blog hehehehe. well, practically today I'm going shopping with my momma and sister am so happy!!!!!! my previous job's pay is here so yep the meaning of "spend $$ like water"? Yep I will be defining it later when I'm out. crossing ma fingers that I'll see whatever I like and get it cause you know.......... most of the times whenever I've got $$, nothing catches my eye. but when I don't...... it's like every shit you like aklso start appearing from nowhere!!!!! horrible huh? ok got to go prepare and head out already xoxo

Heart vacancy

2011-11-05T10:22:00.002+08:00

Hello everybardi! Back to blog. He he days working with eugene brother has been great.... really glad to have such great parents anyway. They did so much for me..... it's true that parents love is the only unconditional love in the world. sick of being taken for granted and make used of, no more no more must tell myself I really cannot afford to let such a thing happen to me again. I need to change for the better and what that matters is actually my family and maybe that special someone. friends? Ha, nah.............. prolly one or two only. Beautiful weather today ^.^ Heading out to meet freddy, velda and dexter for a show or something and then meet yuxuan and augustine omg been so long since I've seen all of them. Irwtttysm, iyaiimyshamtty..... till then xx

Wanderlust

2011-11-03T12:33:00.004+08:00

So I'm finally free to come n blog a little about what I've been doing lately. ok so this mon was the last day @ work @ the airport. kinda miss the friends I met there and the warm thankyou(s) and smiles I get from the tourists... but w/e it is, my current job is obviously much easier + easy $$ all I got to do is activate phones. what's more? I take pictures whenever I feel like it with (brother's phone) heh heh what else can I ask for? not working today as I'm going for reporting later at 6pm! so yep taking leave~ till then xoxo

Losing faith

2011-10-29T14:43:00.003+08:00

It's Saturday! Should I go bake with Megan in the afternoon or just go straight to meet Grace later in the evening for dinner? Got no idea ha ha. Well.............. thankfully my cramps aren't hurting that badly as yesterday. Phew! If not I doubt I'll even head out. Just camp at home whole day and rot......... everyone's so excited and preparing to attend the halloween event later and me? Stay at home lor, can't even go :-( probation's a real burden. Sad girl............................ still remembering last year's halloween I was at night safari with my sissy. Things changed so much. I can only blame myself for the state I am in now. Sighs till then x

Home on a Friday

2011-10-28T12:16:00.001+08:00

I . h a t e . h a v i n g . s t o m a c h . c r a m p s

Clip it

2011-10-27T15:35:00.005+08:00

So hello there everyone. here to blog about my day yesterday..................... ok forever late to blog one lol anyway, today is my darling brother's birthday!!!!! happy birthday brother xoxo wished him happy birthday at 12am on twitter, fb and via text. where to find sich a good sister........ (skin sho thick) hahahahaa anyway went to cinelesure ystd to get myself a bag. the bags there are so priddy and to think that I didn't take a second look at it whenever I went there. fml the choosy + picky me finally got myself a black + gold bag. satisfied he he after I get my pay, I swear I am going back to get myself another bag. :$ lunch at taka's crystal jade outlet. had fun and I was super loving the look I had too! yep, hope eugene enjoyed myself ystd. as for today???? supposed to went to work but I got so lazy and decided to just not go to work. met love to pass her calculator and her long long sweet I bought for her at cine ystd then down to hougang to meet sister. accompanied her trim her brows and had lunch before heading back home. weather sho good. please rain 365 24/7 okay bb x

You have no idea

2011-10-23T21:16:00.007+08:00

I've got really boring weekends. I spend my time at home or out with my parents....... sometimes I think my dad should stop poking his nose into every single thing I do. It annoys the fuck out of me. 1) I feel irritated by some stalkers. 2) People who irritate me every single day with texts. 3) I don't know why but I feel like pangsai as if there's something missing in my life. I feel empty. But whatever it is, thank god I've got a very very very understanding mom and I love her so much x she has been supporting me both physically and mentally. Physically with $$ and mentally with all her actions etcetc hehe how to find such a mom? You tell me. When I get my first pay, I'm going to bring her out. At times I really wonder how many people out there can really be there for me when they say that "I'll be there for you if you need me" Can I say it's pure bullshit? Ha ha. Got to stop having expectations on everyone, I'll only end up getting disappointed. Okay signing off with a lot of thoughts running thru' my head. x

Sick of all the insecurities

2011-10-20T20:37:00.003+08:00

Have been working everyday...... didn't had time for anything else practically. Work > home > work >home > work > home I feel like I don't have a life at times. Ha ha well anyway today was another 6 hours of standing. What was different was that I saw the famous hong kong actress nancy seet!!!!!! FACE TO FACE. Can you believe it? Working in my line can see all the famous people coming to singapore to hold a concert or whatever it is. Fantastic right! Heehee I know but it's really tiring and including the 1 hour or so bus ride to work? No no. So therefore this 31st will be the last day I'm working at the airport. Pretty sad but o well, going over to work with eugene brother. The jobscope is much more easier and most importantly I don't have to stand!!!!! Yesssssssssa hehe okie this is about all. Shall blog when I've got the time. x

2011-10-16T15:38:00.004+08:00

It's Sunday! I supposed to go to church early in the morning and it was one of the things I dread doing the most! but yep this Sunday I didn't had to wake up early for church because dad wasn't feeling too well and I had to visit my beloved grandpa who was taken to hospital last night. so I happily slept in late then woke up > bathe and stuff then went to visit grandpa at tan tock seng hospital. he looks so much btr!!!! I really pray hard that he'll be fine.... he's the only grandparent I have left in this world... I really cannot afford to lose him...... sighs whatever it is, glad that he's fine now. keke tomorrow is monday..... which means work work work for the entire week except tuesday as I'm going for my reporting @ red hill. can take a break from work!!!! ok till then x

Sometimes someone comes along and makes you forget someone else. Remember, they’re not better, they just treat you differently.

2011-10-14T12:20:00.009+08:00

So hello ha.....................! I am back to post a little something when I finally got the time to. teehee didn't went to work today as I went back to school for Graduation day. okay nothing much actually.... kinda waste of time. but whatever it is, last day seeing all my classmates.... till 21st december where we go take our result slips. so yep went home aftermath, watched 'Real Steel' and 'Fright Night' one show after another. hehe this da' best thing I could ever do. if only the guy I love would be snuggling with me watching show together.... hm, how good would that be? ha ha but it's just so impossible. you're gone, like the wind. not knowing when you'll be back again........ but I got to be really understanding. you've got to study anyway. and I think she is better then me. maybe you would be better off with her??? probably.

Building walls

2011-10-12T19:23:00.003+08:00

Started working since last saturday........ work was fun with my bitch around me. I am so not independent. this is the first time I'm working with my bitch. It feels really great and we got a job so fast, like right after exams?!?!! cool or what hehe okay anyway....... tomorrow I won't be working (I supposed to work everyday except sunday) because I'm going for reporting at redhill. so yep no need for me to work. yay! gonna shop around for a new bag after reporting. I need a new one badly.... ha ha and prolly do my brows if there's enough time. till then x

Love yet not

2011-10-06T16:46:00.008+08:00

Hi everyone! I'm back to blog! Am feeling so happy because today is the last day of school + studying. Bye fucked up school. I won't be seeing you anymore till 21 december, after that I won't be wearing that sucky school uniform and follow those stupid and senseless school rules. Yippee! But on the other hand, I can't really enjoy my 'holidays' due to _______. I feel so down whenever I think about it. My heart is sho heavy...... why did I have to be so stupid in the first place. If not I wouldn't be in such a situation right now I swear. Well whatever it is, school's out for me.

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Hi, dear special you. I don't know how to tell you how I'm feeling so instead i'm going to blog about it. I need to rant. Fucking badly. I just wished you'll know how I felt about you. How...... you are so special to me. But at the same time, I feel neglected...... probably cause I am just an option to you all along? I don't know. I feel so stupid. I don't know what to do to make us better. We are forever stuck at square 1. And I hate it so much. You keep everything to yourself.. I can't read you.

Monday blues

2011-10-03T18:08:00.002+08:00

Sat for my physics and chemistry paper today. got up early in the morning at 4+++ and met tuition teacher and eugene to study. teacher then drive us to school. where to find such a good tuition teacher, you tell me? hehe I know right, you guys must be thinking that I'm mad but no I'm perfectly fine. I want to do well ^^v thou it's a little late but yes that few hours of studying was kinda good for me. After my papers, went back home > bathe and stuff went to meet isabella for lunch. Long john silver for lunch ignoring my pimples. yes that's quite all for today. oh yes and maths paper 1 tomorrow.... o god please be easy *cross fingers* I thank god for really nice and caring friends around me that wished me luck for today's papers. quite shocked by the number of them. esp happy when my favourite boy and the few close girlfriends of mine wished me good luck x

Saturday

2011-10-01T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hi. it's Saturday! yay? 2 more days till N level is here again. 3 more papers left! die die must do well. Short update! and my favourite boy texted me FIRST after another long cold war. first time you know!?!?!? when will this short cold war ever stop? sigh ////wrists ah.............. hehe glad that he is back anyway. I was so afraid to lose him for good this time actually. phew~

2011-09-29T12:48:00.001+08:00

Emotionally and physically drained

Fun and laughters

2011-09-28T15:18:00.002+08:00

Let the pictures do the talking. Hehe took pictures with Jielin today while studying. Had so much fun with her, her sister and eugene. x

Superficial & Depressed

2011-09-26T19:45:00.004+08:00

Everyone's fake. Practically everyone. Nobody's truly here for me. I am so sick and tired of everything. Fuck off? There's so much things to say and yet I don't know where to start of. I love my parents and yes I think family alone is who I need. Friends? Not important to me anymore except for a few. For now, all I can think of is that I really want to go through this safely. I hope I don't have to go back in to sit. I really don't want to. It isn't worth it anyway...............

Treat me right

2011-09-19T16:05:00.004+08:00

School's the same. Monday blues ah monday blues~ aiya the weather like a shiok only ah. Kfc for lunch!!!! Planning to give my favorite boy a surprise by this week. We've been communicating well for quite awhile and yes I hope it stays this way 4evaxxx but I know it's impossible.... I want this to never end but I know it's impossible too. Meeting grace this coming saturday as usual x

2011-09-16T21:33:00.001+08:00

Long day out with megan. Love her so much! xx

2011-09-15T16:01:00.002+08:00

School was same, one word: fun. Meeting isabella to get my present which she got for me at Vietnam! x

2011-09-14T12:56:00.000+08:00

I feel so sick.

Monday blues

2011-09-12T21:50:00.007+08:00

Hi, so life is great, see my picture ^ very jiao right............ hehe ikr but can't help it. school is super boring if I don't get hyper and if I don't take pictures. nananana after school, darryl and co. were waiting outside school cause of some shit. wanted to see show but like nothing one leh..... even after going home to bathe and after coming down, still nothing boo! accompanied the guys awhile with eugene brother, had mac for lunch which made me super happy hehe. back home early for dinner with family. I love my family (flying kisses) oki tata till then, tomorrow's gonna be a long day for me anyway x

Monday blues

2011-09-12T21:50:00.003+08:00

Monday blues

2011-09-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

Mid autumn

2011-09-10T15:44:00.004+08:00

Spent my day at home, plans for today were cancelled and yes was super lazy anyway so just stayed home even though some of my friends asked me out. Sorry guys! Watched shows on funshion and texting my favourite boy he he he love how cute he is. Heading to uncle's place for dinner, to celebrate moon cake festival too! Bonding time with cuzzies yay shall take some picture with cuzzie's iPhone later :P till then, x

2011-09-09T14:54:00.003+08:00

Feeling so restless today. Ugh stay home friday, shall study or something. Sigh, I don't have an aim in life.... is that it? I really wonder. Hi jyyw, if you happen to see this, study hard for your upcoming O's okay x

See how much my hair has grown?

2011-09-09T11:08:00.001+08:00

Ha ha, so hi there everyone. Just a random thought of getting all the photos up here. Wanting to see how much my hair has grown. But am super lazy to arrange them in order, so sorry 'bout that And sigh jyyw, you missing me? Cause I can't stop sneezing yesterday. Literally sneezing non-stop. Hope you'll mug hard for your upcoming O levels. x

2011-09-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

English paper was still okay. Tied my fringe in plaits to school today. Hehe I like! Heading out for tution in awhile, x till then

Taken for granted

2011-09-06T17:52:00.001+08:00

OMG I FOUND THIS PICTURES ABOVE. LIKE DONT KNOW HOW LONG AGO ONE SIA.................................... SEE MY COMPLEXION. UGH FLAWLESS BEFORE. AND LONG HAIR. NOW NO MORE LONG HAIR AND FLAWLESS SKIN. I MISS THE PAST T^T O wait, why am I in caps lock???? ha ha okay so hi everyone. got the time like finally to do a little blog post so yes here I am! ta da ask me how I did for social studies, go on go on! he he okay I shall tell you. I am confident that I'll pass and yes it's making me in a really good mood becuz' of that. aiya you all cfm don't know how I feel one lor......... the feeling is like urrrr... breaking free? yes breaking free. anyway, just to tell you guys that I'm going to keep natural hair to the length where I had before going into sgh. those were extentions anyway but whatever, real long hair is the best don't you guys think so? and I've got to be super patient...... sigh hardest thing for me. don't worry, everything will come back soon. very soon. You've taken me for granted, really. I don't even know what am I to you......... forget everything. till then x

2011-09-04T17:28:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying - how to save a life by the fray
So hello everyone. It's Sunday today! Yippee I love Sundays........ okay actually I do not cause I have to wake up early for church and got tuition aftermath but whatever it is I enjoy it. Having my first n level paper tomorrow. Chinese then Social studies then then English. No confidence for Social studies at all. AT ALL OKAY.................. kill me omg nevermind less then a month 6 papers and I'm done with all this. Yay okay dinner at HANS later with family, till then xx

2011-09-01T09:58:00.001+08:00

Happy teacher's day! Hehe okay heading out with isabella later to town to get some stuff, yippee! X

Filled with hatred

2011-08-29T15:21:00.003+08:00

Have you ever experience that feeling? When you get doubted by your loved ones? When all the shit you've done in past is now brought out to judge you. I've changed. Changed so much to try being a good daughter. But you guys just keep pushing me to an end. I don't even know what I should do now. I'm trying to be optimistic. I always want to be happy, never sad. Can I? No I can't. There's something about it then whenever I want to be happy, something/someone just got to make me unhappy, fill me with hatred and misery. Sometimes, you can't help but to think if you're just a waste of earth resource. I should just die, I really should. Nothing I do can ever change the fact that I'm bad. Perhaps I should stop trying to change for the better. Nah, am so wrong to think that it'll help. I'm going to stay the bad me. Just the way I am. Nobody's going to change me

2011-08-27T11:54:00.004+08:00

Okay so uh-hem, back here to post about my day yesterday. with some pictures to make this post not as boring as it seem............. so okay after school yesterday, bathed and prepare back home then took some pictures before going out as usual and because of that I was late!!!! made megan and yongxing wait for me for 'bout half an hour??? omg really felt bad ok.............. :( no more next time I swear. so down to sengkang to meet them first then trained to farrer park for good italian food.
So apparently after being full from all the food... we walked about and I wanted to get a new top from somewhere or anywhere cause I kept complaining to my darling girl that my top was seriously ugly.............. and thank god there was a cotton on there! went in to get this crop top. persuaded megan to get the same piece with me hehe ended up paying for her, so called as a "belated" birthday prezzie for her!!! we then went to change it. after changing, I felt so much more comfortable I swear..... walked around, saw this coffee toast which sells good toast (er, is yongxing say one) lol he then bought two different types to let us try. it was good ^^v walked on and saw gongcha and I got the shock of my life cause nobody queuing at all....... couldn't resist and tried their taro milk, hmm not as good as kawa cafe's one thou.
Ha ha ok so after everything, they puffed awhile before we headed back to punggol. went to punggol billard and saw so many people that I know.......... which I wish I didn't seem 'em cause uhm I thought I looked very yucksie ystd :( so yep looked at 'em play billard till prolly around 8plus??? then slowly walked back. yessssss they walked me home hehe thanks guys!!!!
*points above* picture taken inside punggol billard's toilet lol..........................................
Fyi, I don't have stomach and I ain't fat okay!!!!! is I bend towards megan and yes therefore my stomach seems bloated. don't judge hor hor hor ha ha ha
Home sweet home aftermath. whatever it is, I really enjoyed myself yesterday. I hope Megan and her boyfriend did too...... can't wait for the next outing next week :* love, charis.

2011-08-26T13:11:00.000+08:00

Out to celebrate Megan's birthday xx

Special

2011-08-25T12:31:00.006+08:00

Time check, 12:33pm. doing a special blog post just for two of my darling girls. okay this girl above, Megan Ljl it's her birthday today! She's finally 16teen!!!!! yay *cheers* he he very important to me okay. for everything we did together. I pray that God will watch over her and that she'll be happy always. once again, happy birthday love you. xx

My love, June Lpk and yes she mean the world to me. I love her so much. everything she has done for me, effortlessly. oh and anyway my purpose in blogging is partly for her as she's sitting for her O level oral today! giving her all the luck she needs.............................................. :* till then, bye.

Paranoid

2011-08-24T15:00:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. *pouts* so hello there everyone, am back to blog. I love the pictures I took recently. But oh wait, I hate my face now due to the pimple outbreak I'm having. okay la actually not a lot...... I'm just overly paranoid. I hate pimples. I get so irritated by 'em which also means that I can't stop looking at the mirror. lol I'm serious....... so ya lor. that's actually my reason of blogging. I just hate pimples.... okay bye bye x

2011-08-22T17:49:00.003+08:00

Current mood: Moody.

Song I'm listening to: 沒那麼簡單

Hello everybody. Back to post a little..... well school's good. But it's pretty boring as it's self-revision period. And very few people goes to school now. So it's like............ oh sho boring. Thank god I've got Eugene and Jasmin in class. Sigh, I don't feel good. Am I giving myself too much pressure? Why a few pimples suddenly pork out when my face is getting better? I hate pimples...... I want flawless skin. Wo yao0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o!!!! *okay, charis just shut up* Have to go study already! Till then.

Intense

2011-08-19T17:34:00.006+08:00

We talk like no others, I don't know if you're just different or special. Sometimes you make my blood boil so much that I wish I could never talk to you again. But something is holding me back. Pretty please don't take me for granted. I want to know how important I actually am to you at times............ wished you'll keep reminding me every now and then that I am important..... how stupid. I am just sho sho stupid.

2011-08-18T18:52:00.006+08:00

Hello people. So guess how and who I spend my day with? Yes, that's right! My darling darling precious girl. Yes and that's her in the pictures taken with me. *shy*
So.................. we skipped school. weren't feeling kinda well and I needed to see the doctor. so did megan! So just nice. together gave school a miss he he. woke up, bathe and prepare. met her at sengkang at around 10 plus plus. god, I love her okay. She so steady *blows kisses*
Went straight to the polyclinic, waited to register our name into the system and stuff, it was really fast and I was like 'see see, where will long. *give proud face*' end up?????? waited for almost 2 hours to see a damn doctor. what's worse? went in for less then 10 minutes just to get mc and medicine. funny much? ha ha thank god megan's queue number is right after mine. so I could accompany her to see the doctor.
By the time we both finish seeing the doctor, it was already 12plus. good riddance! pekchek you know......... okay after leaving the filthy sick place, we went to get food for my sister. am such a good sister okay! got her her cravings and specially delivered all the way back to her shop, where she's working and went to ntuc, got some chips and yes bubble tea to go with, obviously like duh. then cabbed back to megan's place.
After reaching her place, she got two big bowl of minced meat porridge out. boy was super hungry ok!!!!! I saw food and I was like f**king happy, I love to eat what. he he her grandma's cooking is srsly good ok....... h2h talks with leo and yes by the time, we finished our porridge. got infront of her laptop and yes took pictures. *points to the pictures in this post* after taking pictures, we watched 'love keeps going' and 'haunted changi' I swear 'haunted changi' really spooked me ok....... :'( never want to watch ghost show anymore!!! try to refrain la lol
And now???? We are nua-ing. Dinner at her place too then I'll cab back home aftermath. I love today and especially love my darling girl megan leo jia lin <3 for everything. okay so this is it. and before I end, I just wished that jyyw would stop being so annoying and keep making me angry. it's fate that we get to contact back everytime stupid things happen between us. this time, it's 10 days...... what if...... sigh I don't know. I'm just insecure, you come and go as and when you like. Tsk ok till then, bye.

2011-08-14T13:12:00.006+08:00

I miss you but......... i'm not going to tell you. Further more, in the first place, you doubted me. You're happy with your life and i'm happy with mine, I think? So what for when nothing makes a difference.

Not suprising

2011-08-08T19:06:00.003+08:00

Back to blog. Skipped school today as it only lasted for 2 hours plus? What's the point of going if that's the case right? Mom suggested that I don't go to school, too. Kinda shocked about it and yes I love her anyway. So, woke up at 9plus. Had tuition at 11am. After tuition teacher left, went to bathe and prepare. Supposed to head to bugis with grace to meet botak but was too lazy, grace wanted to go to amk to meet pohleung but I was super lazy so yes decided to just nua in punggol. Ate a lot at nikon mura (a sushi restaurant) I feel so pig. Eat, sleep, laze around. Ke ke decided to go home after sushi with grace and jansen. Was too tired to stay out. And I looked like a retard having makeup and staying around punggol when I stay at punggol too. So.... I went back home while the both of them went somewhere else. Yuxuan wants to meet me for dinner! She says she wants to htht with me. Shall not be lazy and prolly go down to meet her later. That's all for today! Guuuudabai X

Beautiful Sunday

2011-08-07T13:59:00.003+08:00

Hi. Hello. Wellow. It's a beautiful sunday and I'm feeling pretty good today. Supposed to have tuition today but well I'm too cool for tuition on Sunday so I changed it to tomorrow. Jealous? (to those that have tuition on Sundays) Oh! Yes by the way, tonight am going to celebrate sister's birthday. At this Japanese restaurant! Can't wait! I love Japanese food k3k3k3k3............ Okay till then, X

#nowplaying - Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield

Too quick to assume

2011-08-06T11:54:00.011+08:00

Hai. So yes I am back to blog about my day yesterday. After I blog about yesterday then I'll start to type out how I'm feeling currently. Okay, so yes I headed down to bugis with Jacelyn to meet my very very very close friend to me.

Lu zi fa which I call him takbo cause his nickname was supposed to be botak but yes I did something funny to his nickname and yes it became takbo he he. How long have I knew him? Well, 2 years. Like wa-oh-oh! So long right? Can you ever imagine? I know he dotes on me, a lot. He is just like a older brother to me. Just.... so close to me. He's going into db soon as he was really stupid to run from his duty. I hope that he'll be fine in there. Heard that it was kinda suffering in there.... but whatever it is, I hope after his second visit in there he will learn his lesson and not do anything stupid again. Sigh will wait for him to be out and meet him again. Bugis wasn't like before. Cause all of them are all in army already :( which means.... bugis is just an empty shell now. Only on weekends they are out for awhile then back in to army. Sigh I miss the past. What we've had together, all of us. Never mind! Once I end probation and they O.R.D = will get back together as one he he waiting for that day to come only.

So back to topic. I then left bugis with Jacelyn and Eugene. We were like....... fucken bored? Didn't know where to go so decided to just head back to punggol for sushi. He he and you know me..... I spammed Eugene's phone with my face. As usual. So here are 2 pictures I took..... am so lazy to adjust them, so they aren't in the same size which are kinda messy..... and I'm really lazy to upload the rest hehe the rest you can find them at Facebook if you did add me. So dinner at punggol plaza and guess who I saw........? Dominicduckie!!!!!! Muahahahaha he looked kinda shock when he saw me which I don't know why. After dinner = home sweet home. So erm, I'm like done with my blog post about yesterday? I shall start typing out how I'm feeling and etc. This is killing me, I swear. So I'll start off with letting you fucking dickheads out there know this. QUIT ASSUMING IF YOU KNOW NOTHING. This is the main topic I want to stress on today. Cause I felt so fucking misunderstood. Like what do you know? 1 month of not contacting, he suddenly come facebook message me and also tagging me in one of his "won't-work-sweet-talk" post and you assumed that everything was MY intention, that I was fucking aware of this? What the fuck, seriously. Like I said, what for explaining shit to someone who in the first place already doubt you. The trust isn't there, what else should I say to make you believe? Why waste time? Just tell me, you don't believe me? That I'm those type of girl who will go and flirt the guys who are interested in her? If it is, then I'm telling you STRAIGHT in your face that, you don't know me well enough. Sick and tired of this cold war every 3 times out of 6 times. Disappointed but just so you know, I am so fucking used to it and I can't be bothered anymore. That's all I want to say.

Love, Charis

2011-08-03T15:09:00.003+08:00

Hello there! I just got feel to come post and type type a bit to keep this space of mine alive. The above picture is before before I cut my hair that time. I tell you, I regret it so much. That's why from that day onwards I swear I ain't gonna cut my hair! Never again! No no no. It looks so long last time...................... and now? Still waiting for it to grow. The fuck.................. life sucks when I got short hair lor. *whines* Okay, so have been busy going for night study, having so much fun with the guys and of cause eileen. That's about all? Follow me on Twitter. I'm 20/7 there. Hehe ta ta' X

2011-07-29T12:51:00.002+08:00

Going down to commonwealth to find the cute boy. X

In the space between yes and no

2011-07-26T15:34:00.005+08:00

It's been awhile since I've last posted something on this space of mine. So yes, back here when I am finally free to type some shit out. I've been really busy this few weeks. Doing what? Going out and going for night study. I am a good girl that is trying so hard to be a better person. So know what? Love me. Heeeheeeheeheee! Oh whatever, charis, whatever. I wish you'll see how much I like you. How much I wish I can be with you, someday. But you're seriously disappointing. People are saying how stupid I am to like............... like you? You're just toying with my feelings. Need to get over you. I really have to. You are wasting my time thinking about you all day long. Fucking tiring one, you know? No, you don't. Okay bye for now! X

Love is not proud

2011-07-14T10:54:00.003+08:00

You constantly pick me up and drop me back down. I'm sick of being so happy and then something happens to where my happiness vanishes. I want to stay happy. I don't think that's possible with you. There's so much shit I want to tell you. Yet...... at the same time. You give me a kind of insecurity. I feel as if you can leave me any moment. That's not something I can depend on. Seems like your 'important' was said as a joke? Why did I even cared like seriously? I am so stupid. That's all. You know what? Go talk to all the girls in the world. I'm gonna be so damn fuckinginginging jealous but yeah, who cares anyway. Just fuck off.

2011-07-07T15:52:00.003+08:00

You know when I like someone, I usually get the mutual feelings back. But you? The first one to treat me so cold. Should I call it special or weird? Don't you feel anything for me? To be honest, I am sick and tired of everything. The way you talk to me, feels so unsincere. I mean, if you don't like talking to me, just say? I won't bother you anymore. You leave me hanging in thin air. Should I give up? Or keep on waiting for nothing? Okay oral was so-so today. Nervous okay, I swear. And I had bad sore throat a few days ago? And I was like so fucking afraid that it will affect my talking today. But well yes, all went well. Yay! Hehe happy girl. Oh and I need new pictures. Okay ta ta! X

2011-06-29T15:12:00.002+08:00

Hi. You, yes you. I like you.

2011-06-29T15:12:00.001+08:00

Hi. You, yes you. I like you.

Triangle

2011-06-28T19:54:00.002+08:00

If you are me, how would you feel? I don't even know if I'm important to you, you never say. Never. This feeling is unexplainable. You just don't know how much you mean to me. I don't like what I see. Am I the third party here? Cause it feels like. Should I take a step back? Yes? No? I don't want to take the intiative anymore, I am really tired of it cause I don't take the initiative as often as I did to you. Aiya, wo hen fan. What should I do now.............?

The feeling when someone misunderstands you, someone important.

2011-06-24T14:58:00.003+08:00

I just feel like coming here to rant. What about? Yes someone special to me. We may have been really hot and cold yes but he is someone important to me. And this is affecting me so badly. I just got to type it somewhere where I will feel better after all the ranting. Can you understand me? You didn't even give me a chance to explain myself. Why? If your post on you facebook is for me, let me tell you. I cared. You just don't know. I didn't meant to make you embarrassed. I didn't. You just didn't know that I was stuck in the middle of my friends and you, too. I hope you'll text me soon, I don't want a the end between us. I want this to be a start of something. Something special. I don't know if this is one sided. But all this shit is affecting me. I don't know why. Urgh thanks to the people who cheered me up. Especially yuxuan and natalie. :* till then, love charis

Rich?

2011-06-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

He he so hello there once again. I am back to share what I did today. So my great idea to wake up at 8AM to play monopoly was carried out. Unsuccessfully thou....... Ended up only me and teckseng plus randy realy met at 8AM. Jacelyn and dennis were pigs of the pigs. But yep I wouldn't blame them cause you know, my great idea was really a bit crazy. Not a bit, okay it's a lot. Ha ha ha whatever it is, I got up bathe and prepared. Went down to find the guys. Looked really shag and feeling so tired ofcause. 10plus jacelyn and dennis came. Headed to compass point wanting to play monopoly at the library. Okay we really nothing better to do....... I KNOW! Some shit rules they've got. Say no plkaying monopoly in the library. Can you ever imagine............... So we headed to the sengkang community centre and played there awhile before shengjia came. Played a little while more before heading back to punggol. Went home after awhile as I had tuition. This one month of holiday is the MOST boring holiday ever okay. Gonna have more fun next week or so.... really didn't enjoyed much. Till then, love charis

SWIM IN DA POOL

2011-06-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

Okay so hello everyone! What I did today was went swimming. Okay not really swimming just relaxing in da water with my darling girl, megan. Took lots of picture but yeah not gonna upload all today cause I'm really rushing for time now. Pictures r up on facebook anyway! Can go there n see see. He he lunch at e!hub then back home to put my stuff and then went to meet dennis brother. Then megan went to meet her boyfriend while I met athira. Had chats with her then home sweet home.

Get a gift

2011-06-10T18:05:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone of you. I am back to post. I've got new pictures anyway so I am a happy girl. Oh anyway, I just had my hair cut on Wednesday. I swear I regretted so badly. The damn hair stylist cut my hair shorter, as some of you may know how important my hair is to me. Sigh the feeling when I saw the difference in the length of my hair was a total big blow to me. Fuck my life. I shouldn't have went to go cut my hair. Now? I've got to be patient for it to grow as long as before. Seriously speaking, I couldn't get over it. I almost went into depression. LOL like seriously speaking, fuck leh. The picture above is after I cut my hair. K you guys may not see the difference but in real life, the difference is there. Sigh what's done is done. I can't do anything anyway :( whatever it is. I woked up really late this afternoon, bathe and prepare. Started to camwhore till I forgot the time. Head down to NEX to meet mom. I was late infact whoops! So sorry 'bout that mom! I promise I'll try to be more punctual next time. Got something for baby niece. It was a really nice tanktop and a boxer. Damn pretty! I hope she likes it hehe. Trained home after that. That's practically all for today! Meeting GLYR tomorrow. Can't wait to see her. I love her so much okay? He he love, charis

Miserable at best

2011-06-08T16:15:00.002+08:00

This picture was taken right after coming home from my haircut. Okay......... I FUCKING REGRET OK. It was so long before that and after the cut, my hair = back to day 1 like that. I fucking sad lor............ nabei really wasted. I swear i'm not going to cut my hair, AGAIN. no fucking way. and now? I need to be patient and wait for my hair to grow k all my fault.

2011-06-02T16:35:00.002+08:00

He he hello everybody! I am here to blog again! Well this picture above was not my real hair colour okay. It was just a fail editing. Ha ha ha as you guys can see.... I shouldn't have went to school today. Everyone was in a mess and I felt that there were no actual lessons held. What for go to school? Headed home, Jocelyn came to my place. Waited for me to get ready and we went to punggol plaza for lunch. And guess what? I ate sushi, again! *gulps* I think I will get sick of it in no time :( after lunch, we waited for megan under jocelyn's block. She came and we went up to jocelyn's place for some h2h talk sessions. I guess megan really needed it badly. I really want to be there for her, everytime she feels down. Sigh............. I guess being single is a really better choice? I mean you don't have to worry what will happen or etc. No need to worry, get jealous or whatsoever. Well that's my own thinking thou...... okay that's all for now. Love, charis

Once a gain

2011-06-01T16:06:00.002+08:00

Went to school as usual. Combined class so I could be with my dear grace lim yu ru, so glad to see her hehe. love her so much! draw and wrote stuff with my left hand with dennis brother. on the whole, school was pretty alright. just that a little boring. back home to bathe and prepare then head out for sushi, again with sister and jacelyn. tomorrow i'll be meeting jocelyn for lunch! can't wait to catch up with her. that's all for now, love charis

Sushi

2011-05-31T16:41:00.003+08:00

Hello. I am back to post again! So active right? Yep due to the nice font I've just changed so I got the motivation to blog like everyday? Okay so here's what I did today. Met Jacelyn at 9am, walked to punggol plaza for breakfast then saw dennis and athira so walked to school together. Supposingly they said oral started at 10plus, while some said 9plus. My class ah, really cannot make it. Headed to the maths room to wait for the rest. Luckily we went early because oral really started at 9plus. But okay la...... we wait in the aircon room until I almost died. Feeling so sleepy and to add on, the aircon = really can doze off anytime. After like freaking two hours or so, it was finally my turn. I was super nervous I swear though it was just a practice for N level. By the time I finish, it was already 1pm. Rushed to punggol plaza to help sister tend the shop awhile and also to meet Jacelyn there. Rushed back home again, bathe and prepare with the intention of heading to vivo for a good treat! And guess what? It was raining and there wasn't a cab in sight. So we decided to just have lunch at punggol plaza's sushi @ the basement. Had so much with my dear girl. Eat and take pictures like I've never took before. He he, to end up...... I enjoyed myself today. And now, the pig Jacelyn is falling asleep soon at my place. Aw....... cute little sister. Okay bye for now! Love, charis

Is age just a number?

2011-05-30T10:35:00.004+08:00

Okay so he he hi hi hi. I am back to post a little something. I got bored of my old blog design so I changed a little one or two things. Does it look better like this? I'm really satisfied with it thou. And yep, I've deleted my formspring as I don't want to waste my time replying irrelevant stuff about me, and gutless people. If they've really got anything unhappy about me, please, right in my face. I would prefer that then to always reply nameless people on formspring. So like...... the holidays are here but sad to say, I rather it don't come. I still got to study and also 2 times hardworking then before. I really have to study yet I don't have the motivation. Everytime I see books, I will say to myself 'Ah....... do tomorrow' and my tomorrow never comes. Jia lat right? Haiyo. I wonder why I'm so lazy. He he I am having garlic bread now. So good. K shall start on my work soon :( Bye for now!
P/S: Irwyyia....... sihmb.

Yes/No

2011-05-25T15:27:00.007+08:00

Hello everyone! He he I am back to do a little posting. So well....... missed me anyone? muahahahaha lol k anyway here to update on my results. I swear I did really badly. I feel so pathetic and sad at the same time. What should I do right now? It's like so little time to study for my N level that is coming soon!!!! Sigh feeling so down and moodless. Well... pushing that all aside I am a happy girl! HE HE those who know please keep quiet! Ityichsfm. It's like I get what I want? hahahaha k whatever but I can't be too sure of what will happen next. Let's see okie! ^^ I just hope things would work out well for me, once. I don't ask for more. Really. Anyway starting of next week = holidays!!!!! Happy leh leh leh. Ha ha till here, love charis

People lie, people cry

2011-05-22T15:55:00.006+08:00

He he he so hello there! I am back to post a little something....... ignore my school look (points above) well sigh life has been really shitty for me. I feel so trapped, lost my freedom to do things that I want to.......... who will ever understand me? Who will? But whatever it is, I've got really supportive friends. Thank god for that. Oh and tomorrow going back to school to check my exam marks and etc fuck my life. Confirm gonna let my parents get disappointed, again. Sigh! I'm just born stupid. Okay bye for now x's and o's

Boring old thursday

2011-05-19T17:35:00.001+08:00

OHAIYO! I AM BORED HE HE CHIO HELLO KITTY COVER RIGHT? I KNOW! TOODLES X

16 May 2011

2011-05-18T09:13:00.013+08:00

after a long day......

the cake they bought 4 me!!! aaaaw.....

tickets he he!

neh this stick man, want flirt me LOL

we were supposed to follow that guy's expression but fail~

XXX

love you so much, wong ai qi

Hello everyone! So..... I am back to post about a day which I really had so much fun. on the 16 of May 2011 that was a day after my birthday like duh lol I went to Universal studio with my girls. Isabella, June and Aiqi. shall start my 'compo' ah! hehe don't mind me. this is really going to be a long post. and yes I really mean long. I sat for my paper in the morning and then after that went home to bathe and prepare. called june to confirm the timing and yes got to know that she overslept. he he that girl...... what a pig!!!! but right, ended up she had to come to my place and still got to wait for me. hahaha I was the slow one alright. down to harbourfront. hugged the rest as we didnt see each other for quite some time:( missed 'em so much k!! they gave me a box which was supposed to be my present like duh. kept me guessing thru out k.. took the 'train' into USS. god... it was like a like a chio dreamworld lor!!!! wpiang the 4 of us was so amazed that we stood there for quite awhile to just admire the place k so funny. the 3 of them......... pulled me to the roller coaster entrance and kept saying they wanted to sit. I as a very humji girl cannot stand the thrillness and kept saying nononono ended up dragged by 'em lol I tell you, once is enough. no joke. whole heart can just pop out la!!!! hahaha screamed like no tomorrow... and the queue was like no joke. spent 1 hour queueing k. tsk then after the red roller coaster which was damn scary enough. they wanted to sit the blue one. ok the difference was that the blue one... your legs will be totally hanging in the air but whereas the red one wasnt. thats the difference. enough to kill me k:( thankgod it wasnt open so I screamed hahaha lol k retard much. walked about and yes took the mummy roller coaster. not bad la was fun! hehe the food there was expensive yet good. enjoyed myself so much. hoped the rest enjoyed too! love them so bloody much. ok so time passed really fast. by then it was 7plus and yes everywhere were closing. cabbed back to my place. and during the journey.... they asked me to open the present. I screamed like mad k. even the taxi uncle cannot stand me. keep laughing hahaha it was a pair of brikenstock. k I know to some of you it's really common but to get me smth expensive? was so touched. thanks isabella, aiqi and dennis!!!! ai si ni men la (flying kisses) then took pictures upon arriving downstairs my house. headed back home and at arnd 9plus they text me say want come my house, forget pass me thing. I was like omfg still got somemore?!?!!! lol an few occassions my dad wasnt that happy that my friends kept coming to my house to pass me presents so like I was rlly afraid that he'll go mad again. so I rejected 'em:( then around 11plus they came up to pass me. I then realised that they were waiting downstairs since I went home?!! I knew they were rlly tired after the long day and yet they still waited just to pass me the brownie cake... I felt so bad srsly..... sigh to end off. I just want to thank isabella, aiqi, june and dennis for everything and that it made my day srsly. what would I do if I didn't had you guys in my life? I rlly wonder. and thanks to freddy for everything. 4 boxes of chewy junior and lots of stickies? and also to the people who bought me presents. thanks so much!!! X love you guys. appreciate them lor!!!! (blow lots of flying kisses again) hahaha ok this is it. blog soon, love charis.

Specially 4 Mum

2011-05-08T16:35:00.005+08:00

Okay.... so you guys should know what special day today is right??? yep its mother's day!!!! god.. this day is for all mothers. appreciate your mothers. you've only got one mother. well I just wanted to say that I love you mummy! I know you'll be checkin' out my blog sooner or later he he but yes I love you. I know it isn't enough to show you how much I actually mean it but I really do thank god for having you as MY mom. Thou.... at times I'll scream at you and somehow argue and talk back but pls know that I dont rlly mean to do all that...

I've grief and hurt you alot of times... and making you cry because of what i've done. I promise to be a better person now. and not to hurt you and also papa in whatever I do. I try to tolerate whatever I find that I can tolerate... so that this family would be united even after what has happen in 2008. you're so understanding. can say the most understanding person in my life. you always stay calm in whatever situation I told you. like..... you know laaaaaa HAHAHHAA ok so like... no words can ever describe what a awesome mom you are. I mean it. I hope you like your chio mother's day card and the present zeh zeh and I gave you!!!! he he I want to see you happy always. you've given me alot of encouragement in whatever I did. supported me whenever you could. which mom would be so patient and loving? right right right mama? so to end of....... thanks for everything. Xx to my one and only mother, JCYL.